Remembering "Eye"

I Dream
I Scream
I Smile
I Weep

I Haunt
I Taunt
I Look
I Seek

I Search
I Lose
I Sleep
I Wake

I Keep
I Take
I Break
I Ache

I Laugh
I Give
I Love
Because
I LIVE
© 2009

Unfinnished

"So what have you done to deserve this torture?"
They're forming a mob and they're looking for her.
She's out of their reach and they're screaming "Murder!"
Oh what did she do to deserve...

She is bullet proof if you don't shoot her.
She can tell that you're lying cause you look right through her.
She was everything and you wanted more.
She had it all and you let her fall to the floor.
She is shattered, so scattered, and nothing more.
She is just a dream and you're searching for her reality...

"So what's it feel like to be..."
Non-exisant
© 2007

If I Died Today

Current mood: discontent
Category: Writing and Poetry

If I died today...
What would you do?
Cry your eyes out.
Scream my name.
Shout out to the heavens
to bring me back?

If I died today...
What would you say?
"She was a good friend.
Someone to depend on.
Oh, how could it end
on this glorious day?
How could you
why would you take her away?"

If I died today...
How would you feel?
Shattered, broken, confused.
Lost in the darkness
can't find where the hearts is.
Isn't it hard to keep playing and lose
what you cared for the most?

If I died today...
Would you wish?
That you hadn't been so selfish.
We never had that fight.
You spent more time to talk to me
so late into the night,
and when I call you wouldn't blow me off.
Maybe you'd always answer.
Or even stand there by the phone
let my call like be your cancer.

If I died today...
Would you care?
Was I anything to you,
and did you even know
that I was there?
I was right beside you waiting,
and I hoped that you would notice
how I stare at you with eyes
so full of empty hope that they would
choke you if you ever caught their glare.

If I died today...
Would you cry?
Would a tear
escape your deep brown eyes?
Each memory you have of me
would leave your cheek
so far from dry each night
my face would light your sky.
Each star would shine my name.

If I died today...
How would you think of me?
What was I to the world,
and the people within it?
Was I much of an influence?
Did I leave an imprint?
Did I even make you flinch?

If I died today...
Who would you turn to?
I was the one there for you.
I listened when all ears were closed.
You've told me things no one else knows,
shown the things no one has seen.
We remember as if we were dreaming
so far away now that I'm gone
do you wish you could relive that day?

If I died today...
Who would be to blame?
Society may have corrupted me.
School taught me nothing.
Parents taught too much.
Who?
Where's the finger pointing?
Whose hand is painted red?
Where's the look of shame and guilt?
Who wouldn't be caught dead?

Who else...
Who's there to catch the stare...
The only one who knew.
Where lies the truth yet to be told?
Guilty...
Who else but you.
© 2007

It's Not Fun When You're Burning

"I am the master of everything that is and all that will ever be. Concern yourself with nothing else for I am all you need."


Paint yourself out of my lifes final portrait.
Cut your self out of my hearts final beat.
Hating me now only makes me grow stronger.
Loving me then has led to my defeat.
Down but not out everyday i stand taller.
Float through the masses you all pass me by.
Shadows will fade in and out growing smaller.
Nothing should matter to those who will die.
But if you try harder you'll live on forever.
The crooked path isn't so lonely it seems.
If you would just step out of everyones shadow
your world would be more than a landfill of dreams.
Meaningless, hopelessness, emptiness kills.
Pray for redemption with every last pill.
One to be beautiful; One for strong will.
When your numb you can't feel that you grow weaker still.
So you turn to religion and pray eveyday.
Razorblades, plastic surgery, drugs, a quick lay,
anything to forget you're alive and still mortal.
But you'll die if you can't learn to let it all fade.
Slip away from the lies about who you should be.
Who are we if we can't tell ourselves what to see
in the eyes of beauty? How to live, how to learn,
make mistakes, crash and burn, love your life.
Because only you make it worth living
before it's taken by those you've forgiven.
© 2006

Memories Crawl

Current mood: lonely
Category: Writing and Poetry

Do you ever thing of me?
Late at night as you cry yourself to sleep.
Do you ever wonder if I still care?
Do you ever think of how we used to be together?
Do you ever think of how I was always
There for you I loved and cared for you
Was it true or was it just another chance
To hell with this romance without a second glance
'Cause I can't just come crawling back to you.
© 2006

The Mirror

Look into the mirror.
Tell me what you see.
Reflections of a girl I knew
that I don't want to be.
For evey pain she feels inside
they make her take a pill.
"One day you'll just go numb
and give them looks that kill"

But looks will kill her.
Looks will end it.
Looks will stop the world.
Looking in the mirror now
I see a little girl.
Sitting in the corner dead.
Blood soaked dress.
Bashed in head.
Rope in hand.
Knife in chest.
Finally finding peace and rest.
No diseases, no more lies.
No false hope, it's time to die.

So look into the mirror.
Tell me what you see.
Reflections of a girl I knew
that I don't want to be.
Tired of being numbed by meds
to take the pain away.
She runs from the world to lose herself
there's no one to make her stay.

I never thought I'd see the day
I'd have to watch her fall
I tried to hold her up today.
With every tear she melts away.
She drizzles further down the drain.
Is it from all the pain or maybe
it's 'cause he won't call.
© 2006

He Who's Name It Hurts to Say.

He who's name it hurts to say
cut my heart out yes you may.
Tell me what I want to hear
of memories lost in every tear.
Make it count with every word.
Stab me with the lies you've heard.
Say I'm beautiful to you.
Say you love me swear you do.
Why can't you lie to me now?
Make me understand just how
it fell apart so beautifully.
© 2006