Untitled 57

I feel like dying sick of trying
Sick of crying endless tears
Wanna end this can't defend it
Never learned in all these years
Thought you different thought you cared
Stead you fed upon my fears
Pain is over it's ok
Follow me it all ends here
© 2005

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If I could just rewind and say
Something to make it all ok
If I could just erase the day we met
And just forget the lies and nights I cried
I know I tried and all I get
Is loads of "Justified" bullshit
© 2005

Untitled 55

I feel as though I've lost it all... I cried wednesday and all he had to say was "stop crying"... I ended up in the hospital later that day 'round 3pm... 1Sickle Cell Crisis + 1Major Migrain + 1Stomachache + 1Bad ass cold (which turns out to be numonea or however you spell it) = 2 days in the Hospital which leads to my counts being low sooooo I had to have a transfusion plus I was already stressed out because

I feel like my world is falling apart
Crumbling to peices at my feet
Washing away with my tears, and my heart
Is filled with your lies and decet
I'm just alone, stuck back at the start
Feels like my soul's been peirced by a dart
I guess it's time to say my part
I guess I've met my defeat
I feel like my world is falling apart
And I'll die everytime we meet
© 2005

Boomerang

You are a boomerang you'll see
You can't help but return to me
You're not ready, not quite yet
When you are you won't regret
The choices that you've made
I'll rain on your parade
Only to ease your pain
And we'll be free again
You're a boomerang you'll see
I'll wait till you come back to me
© 2005

Moving On

Bye bye baby don't you cry
I'll be with you when you die
Don't forget our thoughts of sin
Even though I'm now with him
If it doesn't work out then
If you don't let that bitch win
Maybe it'll all work out
Doubt it but dear please don't pout
I'm ignoring all your plee's
Not listenin to any of these
Silly whinning tantrum shit
Calm down dear dont have a fit
You ignored my cries before
Now as I walk through that door
You act as though you need me
Do my senses now deceive me
Why the hell should I believe thee
You're just angry 'cause I'm happy
© 2005

PAST COMMENTS
I love your emotionality in thie piece
quite touching it is...
Posted 1/18/2005 2:27 AM by MoonAssension

LOL! thats right Kiara let that nigga know gurl! Gurl who eva you talkin about them tell em that goes DOUBLE for me! lol! i love ya gurl! Adioz! Ceaserina <3
Posted 1/29/2005 9:35 PM by Covergurl16

:tired: i love your poems
Posted 3/6/2005 12:18 AM by an_autumns_regretx

No Regrets

What is wrong with wanting more
What is wrong with love
What is wrong with asking for
One angel from above

Nothing's wrong apparently
Nothings wrong with you and me
Without love we wouldn't be
Together, you were ment for me

The perfect gentlemen you are
To open doors for me
I wished for you upon a star
My wish then set you free

You tell me I am beautiful
And all you ever wanted
But even though you're here with me
I am forever haunted

I fear one day you'll leave me
And I'll be alone again
And so my love unfortunatly
On you I must depend

But you are oh so sweet to me
This I cannot forget
I hope that I can be the one
That you will not regret
© 2005

Aishiteru

Aishiteru
I say to you
Aishiteru
Merci Beaucoup
Aishiteru
Although we're through
Aishiteru
Just know it's true
Aishiteru
It's hard to find
Unless you read
Between the lines
AI*B*S*R*H*O*I*K*T*E*E*N*RU
© 2005

CA (Beginning A Lie)

Guess it's true
I was wrong
I've been waiting
So long
But I found it
Finally
Guess it's true
You and Me
© 2005

Untitled 54 (Modified for Cahill around 6:30 PM or after)

Do not curse the darkness
When you can light a candle
Don't pretend it's nothing
When it's something you can't handle
Do not let it break you
When it's all a big mistake
Don't desert your feelings
When it's more than you can take
If you hear me screaming
Then you know I feel your pain
If you saw my dreams well then
You'd know why I'm insane
But I'll continue bleeding
And pretend I'm not afraid
Though I might die before you dear
Please don't let our love fade
I can't take much more of this
I don't know what to do
Every waking moment
I feel I've lost more of you
So hold me close and don't let go
We can't just let this end
I can't let it go down like this
I need help to defend
So come a little closer now
And look into my eyes
I feel so cold and lonely now
My spirit joins the skys
© 2005

Untitled 54

Do not curse the darkness
When you can light a candle
Don't pretend it's nothing
When it's something you can't handle
Do not let him break you
He won't do it by mistake
Don't desert your feelings
When it's more than you can take
If you hear me screaming
Then you know I feel your pain
If you saw my dreams well then
You'd know why I'm insane
I'll continue bleeding
'Til someone comes to my aid
And I might die before you dear
Unless this bond is made
So come a little closer now
And look into my eyes
I feel so cold and lonely now
My spirit joins the skys
© 2005

Untitled 53

Escape the darkness
And find your heart
Where the light ends
The darkness starts
© 2005

When Light and Dark Collide

Who will be victorious
When light and dark collide
Oh it will be so glorious
When light and dark collide
Then there will be no more of us
When light and dark collide
Our love will wipe the floor with us
When light and dark collide
And in the end they all will see
When light and dark collide
That light and dark is what we'll be
When light and dark collide
© 2005

In Place

In a place I won't feel cold
In a place I won't grow old
In a place I lay in wait
For the darkness to come
And seal my fate

In this place I won't feel scared
In this place my teeth are bared
In this place where no one knows
How lonely my heart
Slowly grows

In the place with a purple sky
In the place I forgot how to cry
Where candy clouds fly up above
The place where your lullaby
Taught me to love

In this place I feel so bold
In this place my heart was sold
In this field we'll always be
Paper flowers
You and me
© 2005

Little Girl

There is a girl by the window
There is a girl in dispare
There is a girl with a rope round her neck
There is a girl made to care

This little girl has no hope left
This little girl's scared to die
This little girl wasn't made to forget
This little girl's ment to cry

That little girl is alone now
She's been alone for a while
That little girl who is 15 years old
You made that little girl smile
© 2005

Dear Love...

Dear Love, Why don't you see
Dear Love, Maybe it's me
Dear Love, We could be free

Dear Love, Are you so broken
Dear Love, Words that you've spoken
Dear Love, Now we're all choking

Dear Love, Why are you dying
Dear Love, Why am I crying
Dear Love, Stop all the lying

Dear Love, Why don't you see
Dear Love, Maybe it's me
Dear Love, We could be free

Dear Love, Just You and Me
© 2005

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M1ZZUND3RZT00D: Last night... er... Early this morning... er... Early YESTERDAY morning... I wrote a poem about and for my angel and sent it to him
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: did he get it?
My Dearest John: i probably did but my mom had already used the computer before i woke up and everything anybody said to me was lost
My Dearest John: thats just how my world works
My Dearest John: and i do apologize for it
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: i still have it
My Dearest John: show me
M1ZZUND3RZT00D:
I'll be there by your bed tonight
And I will never leave
I'll be so close I'll steal a kiss
My lips do not deceive
My angel in the darkness
Broken heart and tattered wings
My love together in our death
We'll find the better things
Yes together means forever
In the Voodoo of Hells Half-Acre
We'll say our vows and then "I do"
And then we'll meet our maker
And as I lay on top of you
One final kiss I'll steal
With hopes of Crimson Poison
With those lips my soul will heal
And with that kiss my heart will stop
And I will join you well
For dear my love is always true
In Heaven or in Hell
© 2005
My Dearest John: thats fuckin beautiful
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: and it comes with a smile for my angel
My Dearest John: god bless you
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: It's all for you because you make me happy and i like being happy
You make me smile and I like to smile
Sometimes lol you turn me on ...I like that too hehe
I'd laugh, smile, cry, die, live, give, do, for you
My Dearest John: it means the world to me know that
M1ZZUND3RZT00D:
If I could do things right
I'd be there withyou tonight
And I'd stare into your eyes and say
That I love you in everyway
And though I'll never see that day
In my heart and soul you'll stay
© 2005
My Dearest John: i cant smile moreso you dont need to keep writing
My Dearest John: i believe
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: I don't NEED to breathe but I can't help it
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: same with writing
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: well
My Dearest John: good call
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: actually
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: I could stop if i really wanted to
My Dearest John: dont stop breathing
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: but breathing is easier than not breathing
My Dearest John: it is
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: same as writing
My Dearest John: you wanna read somethin i wrote today?
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: ok
My Dearest John: all of the dreamers...
My Dearest John:
and they came with their knives
until death did them part
from the thoughts in their heads
and the cold in their hearts

and they learned that tomorrow
is nothing but dreams
as they laid in their beds
knowing nothing of peace

and they cried when they
lost will to wake and to move
oh, but other than that
there were no tears to lose

and they never got
anything they ever wanted
instead they were left
with what had been forgotton

but, still, they survive
thru the winter like i
because they know
that even the winter will die
© 2005

My Dearest John: end
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: beautiful
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: like our souls
My Dearest John: thats right
My Dearest John: im drinkin a bottle of champagne all by myself
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: but you r not alone
My Dearest John: i know
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: good ^.^
M1ZZUND3RZT00D:
He's dreaming
He won't stop believeing
The truth is deceiving
And lies seem so real

He's hoping
As he copes by smoking
He knows life's a joke
And that god doesn't feel

An angel from hell
He knows all too well
Still he flows
While his poetry heals
© 2005
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: God you inspire me
My Dearest John: =)
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: and you're damn sexy too
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: lol even when you're drunk
My Dearest John: why thank you
M1ZZUND3RZT00D:
A kiss from a far
May my wish
Find your star
And as I depart
You'll stay near
To my heart
For I bide you
Goodnight
And Sweet Dreams
© 2005
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: Goodnight
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: and Sweet Dreams
My Dearest John: sweetest dreams to you too
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: Only the sweetest for and of you

PAST COMMENTS
:wave:This was too sweet!
Posted 1/4/2005 11:21 PM by MoonAssension

Untitled 49

M1ZZUND3RZT00D: Happy new year I guess
My Dear John: my resolution is to die in my sleep
My Dear John: happy new year to you too
My Dear John: im about to pass out and hope it comes true today
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: um
My Dear John: ummm what
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: ok well i'm just gonna say that I
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: That I luv ya and I atleast want you to know that when you die if you do
Twenty1July: i wont die tonight i have shit to do but go on
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: well I was just gonna ay
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: You're awsome I mean You've made my life better as a whole and Even if you don't think I do I know I love you without you in my life I really dunno what I would have done then
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: And I've missed you over this period of time that we've not been able to talk
My Dear John: smile
My Dear John: you sit in here
My Dear John: my heart
My Dear John: smile
My Dear John: im going to go to sleep now
My Dear John: and my dream probably wont come true
My Dear John: but you need to smile
My Dear John: and know that everythings gonna be fine
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: Well I'll miss you none the less
My Dear John: smile
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: and I'll smile fo you only and always
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: for*
My Dear John: it doesnt get better than that
My Dear John: thank you
My Dear John: and i do remember
My Dear John: goodnight to you
My Dear John: sweetest of dreams
My Dear John: please dream with the angels
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: only the sweetest for you
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: you are my angel
My Dear John: thank you
My Dear John: i will see you move
M1ZZUND3RZT00D: I'll be there in your dreams
Auto response from My Dear John: my resolution is to die in my sleep

M1ZZUND3RZT00D: And this one is for you
M1ZZUND3RZT00D:
I'll be there by your bed tonight
And I will never leave
I'll be so close I'll steal a kiss
My lips do not deceive
My angel in the darkness
Broken heart and tattered wings
My love together in our death
We'll find the better things
Yes together means forever
In the Voodoo of Hells Half-Acre
We'll say our vows and then "I do"
And then we'll meet our maker
And as I lay on top of you
One final kiss I'll steal
With hopes of Crimson Poison
With those lips my soul will heal
And with that kiss my heart will stop
And I will join you well
For dear my love is always true
In Heaven or in Hell
© 2005