Depression '05

I suppose, if I had it my way we'd still be together.
But I've learned nothing's what it seems.
I feel like I live in a dream world.
A dream world I built around myself to hide.
But I lost control. I can't find my happy ending.

(What would you want your happy ending to be?)

I just want to find "THE someone"
The one who takes my breathe away.
The one whe sends shivers through my body with one touch.
The one who makes my heart stop.
The one who makes me gasp for air
and it feels like i'm dying and yet
I know I'm alive because I'm with him.

I'm tired of thinking I found him I want to actually do it.
I 'm tired of imposters, I'm tired of tears, I'm tired of pain.
I wanna be happy now, when is it my turn?
(We don't get turns. This game doesn't work like that.)
I feel like everyone around me is happy.
I wanna join the winners circle.
I feel like I'm the only one still stuck at start
or maybe this car's out of gas 'cause i'm going nowhere.
I'M JUST SINKING.
© 2005